asean dance

I wont say it was fun, but maybe more meaningful.

I got ready v fast and waited to gracia to get my hair done. She was doing hair for so many ppl like hani me and tim. in the end me zippy bel and cia were late. lol.

so we cabbed there. im thankful w did cuz ppl who took the bus had to bloody walk.

I was starving so pitoon bought me macs and me and gracia ate in the toilet.

btw fullerton toilet is 10 times nicer than our dining hall so nvm.

haha.

I was SHOCKED at pitoons CASUAL dress and of cuz i scolded him. but anw i have to admit that he still looked damn nice la. -.-

We waited outside for yenceen seeting tingyun and her bf to come before we went in.

Fullerton is nice but its like so grand till its not fun anymore. its too formal.

ANW, I saw bobby inside so i just stuck around with him. Hes soooo cute with his dimples. ^^ im obsessed. nvm.

I saw manny people. Like julian (whose v nice and manly now!), Daryl (my hot superstar junior), vivi (:D garang woman), lele (my baby), vanlow (twin), yineng, jing (who KEPT touching my boobs so GROSS omg), wanteng, huiwei etc, ning, amy, basta, tiara, yoshi and tons more.

and of course very importantly, polar my BEST FRIEND :D:D he looked so bored cuz diep wasnt there =)

so fast dance was boring. Soooo i went around with bobby and pitoon to sa hi to ppl. like both my hands were preoccupied. like their some body guards or smth. lol.



Then daryl performed! (: he's voice is mesmerizing. even guys like him. all the guys were like shouting and cheering for him. lol. and he keeps denying that. (: and rmb boy, youre the junior im the senior. respect :P



Slow dance was OK. I prefer last year i guess.



First I danced wit bobby. who said he was overwhelmed with guilt because my first dance isnt with pitoon. lol ut theres no connection. Bobbys really funny. he was like how to dance ah. damnnnn cute. I'l miss him like MAD after he leaves. Im obsessed with him dimpples. omg. so nice. i fee like taking them out of his face.



Then I danced wit polar. Ok dancing with your best friend is just WEIRD. but nevertheless he;s always been the BEST dancer i know thats why everyone CANT STOP TALKING ABOUT HIM! and since his gf (which is also my best friend!!! dont think ive forgotten you babe) couldnt make it. So he could only dance with his good friends. so damnnnn loyal lah! =)



After that i danced with pitoon whose so err :P lol. but taking into account that he was so damnnnnn cute last night its okay. and also since hes my soulmate and he cooks and washes for me. I think im gna marry him (: JKJK



Lastly i danced with basta. It was kinda awkward at first. and i felt like killing fani and ivan. But after that it was cool. memories were like flooding my head. kinda scary. and i realised how much i miss him. seriously. ><>

After slow dance, i just went around. Cyndi talked to me to help me recover from my utter shock. Fani laughed laughed laughed. And i laughed at her and ivan too duh. trung walked me around and i ended up spitting my coke onto him cuz he kept pushing my mouth.

Basta and polar gave me pink flowers. how err......ironic? but both of them know me v well :D tim RS and pitoon gave me red.

then i took photos with daryl. girls who wanna DROOOOL over him (cuz i know alot of my friends are obsessed over him. thats just weird), ask me. and photos with jas, szecindyo (tedddy),van low ETC :D

after that polar gave me a gift and a card. OMG. He knows me best, seriousllllllyyyyyyyy. I LOVE IT SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH HUN! YOURE THE BEST BEST BEST! :D:D:D i looooove yoooou so much. CAM ON!! <3

overall asean dance was cool lah. even though i wouldnt have went if its not compulsory. and polar and others will scold me like mad. but still.

im still obsessed wit bobbys dimples. i must make sure my son has many dimples :D

pre-asean dance

Asean Dance used to be such a big thing. like all the whoohaa and stuff.
I rmb being in NY, nant coming to my room to try on my dresses.
Going to lenk's rooms to put on makeup and making a hurricane out of everything.
Rushing to style vi's hair and curl up mine
Sitting on the bus with justin and cam whoring while people say "omg, why u 2 have to wear such similar stuff"
Talking to Vanlow Niko and Car about Asean Dance and getting so exited
Bitching with dan about who loooks great and who..doesnt (:
Sticking with Eli and running all around the place
Dancing with Alon (its a tradition) :D
A hug for polar and tell him he looks great
telling Julian how much he's changed
Taking pis like maddddd
oogling with gui
Holding his hand and actually knowing the feeling of being loved.

I actually saw who loved me and i learnt who i love during both asean dances of the past.
Falling in love.
After that falling out of it.
It was loads of fun. always.
in 2006 i fell for a guy first time in my life.
in 2007 getting together with the other.

but now asean dance is like a chore. A duty we have to fulfill so we dont waste our money or whatever. I dont even wanna go.
Justins gone
Merys gone
Nants gone
Dieps gone
and their all my best friends

As dance just lost its fire. Music and Passion was always the fashion. not any more.
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I went to cyndi's rm and we tried on our dresses and shoes and stuff. Talked about how were gonna our hair. striping down to just our undergarments to make sure its fast. It was fun. but just different from last time.

Its so different. Which guy am i gonna fall for tomorow? Which guy am i gonna bitch about for harrassing me. Which guy am i gonna shout at and slap for harrassing my batchmates.

What am i gonna say to him? Am i supposed to smile? What kinda smile? Am i supposed to ignore? Am i supposed to say hi and leave? Am i supposed to strike a decent conversation?

In a few days time it would have been ur 1 year anniversary. Would have. I cant stand but to think, what if..what if...what if. What if we were still together? Would he still love me the same way? Would I have learnt to treausre him????

The worlds not gonna stop time for me. But im not gonna catch up with it either. Nor will i back track. I'll just stand still and let it past.

How am i supposed to react?

JH is teaching me math, thru msn
i am pathetic
super.
I slept like mad just now.
Im happy
:D
like having a soma holiday.
Asean dance is tmw and im freaking dreading it.

Polar called me when I was sleeping. I cant rmb what he said -.- i think he said call him if im going out so we can meet up or smth. o.O im still quite sleepy.

yineng is trying to persuade me to go as dance. omg, i miss her so much
oh today during lit there was like this WHAT THE FORD=WTF thing. damn cute
JH is like ://///-ing at my math now.lol.
that day we were talking about uni and he said he wants to take "APPLIED MATHEMATICS"
ya i know damn lame. yucks
i told my math teacher " i think math is a waste of time"

and i think he's quite disappointed.

:(

but i really do think so

OMGGG! jh just said this. lok and LAUGH. or class dao-er just said this.

jh. says:
try and understand
jh. says:
albert einsten once said
jh. says:
he wasnt smart, just that he stayed on problems longer.

thats like SO not JH. what happened to the "im searching for the true meaning of why i exist guy"
hahaha

my bros in england and hes telling me he doesnt know what to get for my bdae
i bet he'll get me food in the end.
homework is like pilling up before my eyes and i watch myself drown into complete abyss. and im helpless.
ugh. i must start studying. i cant even catch up on hw.
we had this mizuno run thing on sun to support the basketballers running their 10 km marathon. i must say i was QUITE impressed with their stamina. Andy from 12 F came in first f0r the bb team. as a whole they r quite good runners i guess. afterthat we all went for lunch. uhm the b's and the c's dont go tgt. later me huiching and wena went to velocity. actually we wanted to go newton to play basketball but the courts were occupied. so yeah. we ate yoghurt and talked like mad. lol then pitoon came over. it was quite fun :D
today after i came back form the toilet there was this huge cockroach when i entered the room staring at me. but i didnt scream. if sim was here ill be screaming down level 3 telling him to kill it. haha. and i dunno where it is now. i think angeline is gonna faint. -.-
asean dance is coming and i cant sell the ticket cuz its not allowed. i dont wanna go for my own personal reasons is that too hard to understand? i rly hope diep can make it becuz i miss her so much and its just not the same without her.
everyones telling me to just forget but its not that easy when your carrying the burden on your shoulders. its like every move i make, every step i take, i feel like something invisible is watching me.
i really wish justin mery nant giu and everyone was here.
I rly miss last year's asean dance.
Justin and giulia were here. i miss experiencing that kinda pure happiness. I rmb days before as dance we were all sitting around trying to help me get over him. and yeah it was so cool. i miss nybs.
I miss people not being able to appreciate us.
I miss gui swooooning over the red shirt and black shirt guy (LOL!)
I miss him i guess????
thats a majorly major reason why i dont wanna go.
we got tgt durin as dance.
I made justin pisseeeedddddd, maaaaaaaaaad for doing so but i still did anw.
I made gui laugh at me like crazyyyyy

one in US one in Switzerland one in SG.
I feel like theres one huge barrier between us.

trungs 18th

chuen yang hasnt uploaded the pix yet :( hmmph
founders tmw :D i just got to speak to a girl who went mg last time. shes rly nice. i wonder how come i dont know her. :( but i do now :D
im quite excited and stuff. yeah sounds lame right -.- but stillll. its mg afterall. im gonna see lots of friends and teachers and stuff. yup.
my junior vernzhiang is v weird. i dunn how he got in hc. but then again i dunno how derek got in hc also :P ouups.
im so sleepy but i have to do the stuuuupppiiiiddddd eom ><
but i only have minor mistakes thank goodness lol.
im sleepy. seriously.

oh happy birthday trung. the guy whose always looking out for me :D
i paid fullest attention during econs lecture today. so proud of myself! (: and i could do some math. thanks to raini the bigggeesssst bitch on earth. haha.

some basketballer run on sun and the cheerleaders r gonna support. uhm good luck ij basketballers o.O yay i get to see hc and wena :D

MONITOR LIZARD :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D!!!

okay my math teacher is so funny.
He was like telling met os tudy vectors and ignore the test tmw (vectors not counted)
and suddenly he said ok i dun wanna give the test anymore cuz theres no element of suprise.
walaoooo. thats like the weirdest sms i ever receieved from a teacher but still he's my fav math teacher anw.
so...i told him to do concept map tmw cuz i didnt do hw (as usual-.-)

the moe interview was damn funny. andy was there my only friend. and everyone else being interviewed were boys so it was like so weird.
and the interview was damn informal. i figure she alr wants to take everyone in. and i seriously dont wanna be the only girl. its like the boys voices were so low and echoing in my head like some kinda fly and i got damn intimidated :< extremely unhealthy.
i wanted to meet up with polar but he REJECTED ME. yes hun you rejected me. diep pls scold him :< cuz he had some recent messed up haircut or smth. how....vain. lol.

lit has been getting on my nerves. i just submitted the worst essay i ever written in my life and it broke my heart to see it go into the teachers hands. i sound like some kinda freak but i really wanna do well for lit okay.

justin said that me and elvis have equal amnt of love. that seriously sucks considering elvis is some BLOOOOOOODY soft toy. thanks huh. annnd someone is more impt than me alr. i wonder WHO! haha.

the most interesting part of today was that i saw a bloody freaking HUGE monitor lizard on the way back home with pitoon. i think its the best day of my life. my dad said im mad. oh well. i have this obsession for big reptiles. i hate small yellow fugly lizards cuz i dont want them to get stuck in my hair. triple GROSSSSSSS. but i saw it in the drain running away. its huge like my torso size. pitoon s telling everyone i exaggerate but trust me im not. i m still v excited i dont think ill ever recover from it. i mean the thing is wild ok. how COOL is that. its brown and it has a big fat taillll. but i only caught a glimpse of it. i waited for 15 mins for it to come out again but unfortunately it didnt. i even made pitoon go down and check but he couldnt find anyth. and that broke my heart T.T i really wanna see it again. its just cool. then i ran back to boarding to tell everyone i could about it. and the ahm looked equally amused. but all my guy batchmates gave me the -.- and jeremy or pitoon even said that i can form a reptile club in sch with a SARCASTIC tone. ughhhhhhhhh ><

trungs bdae tmw. (: say heartfelt 100000000x or else ur not gonna get the gift. minh said ur starting to love ur feet more than your head but thats alright cuz i still love u alot!
(:

crazy.

HI JUSTIN. HI DIEP. HI POLAR. HI SIM!
I was just looking at last years asean dance photos.
all i can say is..OUCH.
So much has changed.

We're not tgt anymore.

Justin left for US.

Mery and Nant r gone.

Chuenyang is gone too.

I dont talk to julian anymore.

I see polar like once in 6 months.

Guilia is gone too.

Lenk is having problems. ( sweetheart cheerup i love u)

Its getting creepy. everyone i was ever close to. GONE.
wtf. lats yr when i was about to leave, so tempted to withdraw, polar called me and said he thinks he's cursed. cuz everyone close to him is leaving. and he got rly upset.
OMG thats how i feel now.
and i just read a comment polar left me long time ago :"ur getting emo and thats not healty hun"/
omg made me laugh like mad
cuz i start to rmb, (WHEN HE WAS NOT ATTACHED) how emo he was. Reversal of roles. but thanks to diep he;s alright now.
I really dont wanna lose anyone anymore.
I was talking to jiahao. NO 32A, i do not have a crush on him thanks. He's really great to talk to! seriously. i felt much better after knowing he shares the same thoughts as me.
Poeple only get competitive when their jealous and they know their better.
Thanks so much JH! XD

andddddd. a miracle happened. I finished my fuctions. Thanks to some player. nvm. im ok if my friends are players but as long as im not being played. ha ha ha ha ha. :P
i dont wanna take ANYONE for granted anymore. I SWEAR. thats like a bloody damn promise to myself. and everyone i ever let down.
I am not gonna be spoilt for choices that i abandon people who love me.
im a beeeeeeetttcccchh.
on a happier note.....trungs bdae is coming up. im v excited :D:D:D:D:D
oh and yesterday me jeremy trung and candice went to eat ice cream. it was damn cool. me and trung were debating that whether its wrong to fall for ur best friend. TO ME ITS DAMN WRONG. to him its fine. me and jer think the same way. must be the malaysian power.
im trying to imagine. if jer and candice get married in 10 yrs time. omg. damn scary. but most of all, poor candice. LOL!
i rly loooove my batchmates. what would i do without them??

theres this damn cutttteeee guy in the hostel. GUESS WHO!!!!!!!! muahahaha. i sound like some pervert. OK its marcus :D cute lil p6 boy.